bored..tirled...blah

ok so.. i know i proly look like a twilight freak by the pics i have posted.......but, i truth be told i decided not to read the books, for my own continental reason, but i am looking forward to seeing the movie for i love the actors playing bella and edward.

i posted a new playlist, it very random weird stuff but i was bored of words in my music so i now have paolo nutini, the pirates music, halo music, and some other stuff... i hope you enjoy.....



i;m really tired, i've had to wake up at seven just about everyday this week, next week and the week after that too.... ugh


we had my cuzes grafd party last night, it was fun except for my stupid stupid hormones......blah i'll explane later.....


we've gotta set up our girls only slumber party befor tori and harper and tiff leave for vaca... idk maybe monday to tues day....... wait no i'm babysitting... see the delema..... we could do wed. to thurs....? idk.. we'll figure it out later........

ttyl-steve

dear........

i tell everyone i wuld never change for the person i like , wouldn't go out with them if they wanted me to change, wouldn't go out with them is they didn't like my hari or clothes.. yet here i am... finding myslef turing into the kind of girl u liike..... how do i know... ur my friend... an awesome friend........i think of u all the time.. ur in ym dreams....... ur in my book.... and i'll love no other.........



i need a botfast i need u off my mind.. i need a night with the girls, amkeovers spilling seceretes, acetone, will my bffs pleze help me here!!

here we go again......

ok, so the last blog i posted was pretty sever and i've gottten a lot of comments, and ppl have talked to me saying how much they'd miss me if i left, and like i posted as a comment on another blog theres this little dude in ym head, poisioning my mind, but i'm fighting back
i'm taken up a new hobbie and interest, and u can kinda tell by my pic, i'm really in to fashion designing, and i have been... ofr a while, but i've always told my self thgat i shouldn't believe in it beause it wouldn't make a good living in the carrer world....... well i'm only a teen.. so... i'll wing it, i'm still very interested in being a nanoboitechnologist, and i really want to, but i love fashion too, so, y can't i do both??

i really apprecate all the ppl thet have helped me,and ihope to continue helping me.. through the rough spots... cause there gonna be there, i still hate the way i look, and feel, but i'm tryin to kill the person poisoning me,

to tiff... u r my amazing friend, and u ahve helped and inspire me, to keep moving forward insted of up......i thank you soo muck, and i know we haven't been the closest,but now, i feel like ur sister because i can kinda understand how u feel, and i'm here too now for u, anything or anytime you want to talk.. IM me @ LiLSTevE8973.... i'm like alwzys on, or u can call my cell... most of the time my brother in hogint he home phone..thnk u so much for the help!


and thank you to everyone else for helping and hopefully, still helping me to see the light at the end of the tunnel.......




so.. i guess i'm gonna sharpen the penciles, and have fun doing what i love best!..and haveing one of there sugar, caffene,acid free, and totally good for you, but still tastes good sodas my mom bought for me


peace-steve

time to start over

ok.. so tommorow is the last day of school so.. by tommorow midnight i'm leaveing every horrible.. bad.. mean, pitiful thing i did behind me, only keeping the good things, so when i burn my papers tommor night, a custom we have, i'm throwing away notes.. and drawings and everyything i don't want to remember.. blackmail, cheating, everything that went on this year.. even if it didn't ahppen in my school.. it going! tommorow is ganna be great.. its the last day and yess i have 2 after school is out tests but.. i'm good with those. life is good for now.. and tommorow.. i'll be clean again, i won't ahve to worry about ppl finding out and runing my rep.. or anything like that.. it'll just be ashes in the fire bit, and unless u can tape ashes together.. i'll be free of everything.. everything.. even online diary entrees are being deleted.. stuff from my memeroy box, and even pictures.. all gone.. all clear..

peace..steve

new blog up

check out me and shameso's new blog..... www.wartimechronicles.blogspot.com

here we will post pieces from our books.. which are listed in thright hand colum... check it out..

post,rate,ask questions, or even sugggest

dramatic excerpt from A Hunters Mark

" darius?" i asked
"yeah " he yeasponded
" where did you go? i heard you went to the outlands?" i questioned
" lets not waoory about that no." he responded and squeezed my hand to signal he didn't want tot talk about it. i dropped the subject, but why didn't ha want to talk abou it?
" why won't you tell me?" i asked flirty
" i told you to let if go." he said strictly.
" but why can't you just tell me then we can put it behind us?" i asked, now stand, faceing him.
"Nothing!" he said raiseing his voice" nothing happened!"
"I can't really believe that," i shot back" because you won't tell me!"
" Shut up!" he half yelled" JUST SHUT UP!!!!!!!!"
" oh, well, since you feel that way, you can just leave again!and don't even bother telling me where you went!!!"i yelled back
"Ha, like i'd leave you here alone with Pwnreaper!" he shot back" and why should i tell you hwere i was when you naver told me why you slept with him!"
" NOW I WISH I HAD.... JUST TO SEE THE LOOK ON YOUR FACE!!!!!"
he was suddenly calm, he brought his eyes up from the ground to meet ine
" you never?" he asked
" no, i thought you knew me better. " i responded quietly
"" but you guys were.......and ..."he sputtered. He lookeed at his feet, then back at me. " i'm sorry for well, the way i, calling you a skank."
" its ok, now, lets get back to X..." i reponded

we walked beck , a little closer. i had changed out of my armor and into an oversized shirt and shorts. i walked into the kitchen aera and grabbed some ice cream, i sat on the counter and just as i was finishing my ice cream i felt darius' arms wrap aroung me. I put the bowl down and turned toward him. He has a pair of pants on, but no shirt. He was so amazing, i stepped into his arms and we hugged for what seemed like hours.


suddenly, and immensewave of pain rushed over me.
" darius?" i wispered
i felt the floor approaching as i fell, but darius' strong hands caught me.




more comeing hope you like it!

reflection.............

Look at meYou may think you seeWho I really amBut you'll never know meEvery day, is as if I play apartNow I seeIf I wear a maskI can fool the worldBut I can not foolMy heartWho is that girl I seeStaring straight back at me? When will my reflection showWho I am inside? I am nowIn a world where I have toHide my heartAnd what I believe inBut somehowI will show the worldWhat's inside my heartAnd be loved for who I amWho is that girl I seeStaring straight back at me? Why is my reflectionSomeone I don't know? Must I pretend that i'mSomeone else for all time? When will my reflection showWho I am inside? There's a heart that mustBe free to flyThat burns with a needTo know the reason whyWhy must we all concealWhat we thinkHow we feelMust there be a secret meI'm forced to hide? I won't pretend that i'mSomeone elseFor all timeWhen will my reflections showWho I am inside? When will my reflections showWho I am inside?






reflection.. origanaly a disney osng from moulan....

very very similar to me.....

all i have to say

post..

so... havent blogged in a while...idk.. havent had lots to blog about

came to a sudden realization thet potentaly ends my love life........crap



so it thundering and thretening to rain so if it does i'm totally going outside and standing in the rain cause its frying here....

my cuzin is here from missippi and brought her 9 month old daughter that i got to babysit on friday

olnly 6 more days opf school left..... YAY!!! were watching becks favorite movie in S.S........ forest gump.. i liike that movie



so i no longer have to wear this huge brace on my knee but i still can run jump twist or really do anything fun......... yay!

not



to all of you reading this.... never tear your ACL it sucks...

went and saw another schools production of once upon a matress yester day.. it was good... its sad to say but there schiool might be poorer than ours.

i figured out how fun drawing with crayon is....... LOTS!!!

i'm used like and entire pack of printer paper just doodleing...

so i start my mentoring program on tues... i'm not really nervous cause i got to ahng out with 2 7th gradeers the other day and kinda practiced and the lady whos running the program was there and she noticed i was helping cause the kid said his dad hit him and that his parents call him styu[pid and she said i did a really good job of handleing what he was saying



so we had out XC meeting for next yr where i told my coach i wasn't gonna be able to run fast andhe said it didn't matter..t hat it was more important for me to be fast for tracy which i don't know if its a complament or an insult ...............?



so in one of our late night texting sessions the other night my friends andy( guy) told me one of my buest guy friends is in love with me.. which i guess i kinda knew... although this in NOT my sudden realization(harper!)

so currently i am sitting in my living room....typing , while it thunderstorming and weating an apple bigger than my best friends brain!





all for now......pece