silent

i hate bothering ppl with my problems, and i thinks thats why some ppl see me as standoff ish or snotty. But really i hate makeing someone else worry about my problems, when the probably have they're own. i hate tell ppl my secrets because i can't trust anyone no matter ho hard i try and i hate talking about myself. I feel like i can't trust who ever i'm talking too because they'll tell someone or use what i tell them againstme. and as much as i do it.. its still hard for me to blog. i hate rt now i', sitting here insecure and jittery because i feel like whoever reads this is going to think i'm being whinney and stupid, and that i just need to man up and stop being a baby. But the truth is.. i've had this problem for as far back as i can remember.... and i hate it.. i need halp.. but i'm afraid to ask for it=( so help me.. somebody.. please=(