It's gettin' harder to keep faith in you.....

Saturday- my Gradnp calls my dad at work to say good-bye, becasue he believes he's going to die by the end of the week. after he calls my dad he goes to sleep. We get a call later around 6-ish saying that my grandpa suffered a stroke while sleeping and is unresponsive. My gradma is histeric, yalling at him that he needs to wake up, that she needs him. Around 7 we get a call saying he is still unresponsive, but is talking, he isn't answering questions, but is just talking...... our house is silent that night

Sunday- we get calls telling us my grandpa is still slightly unresponsive, but can now hear then and answer questions, but is terribly confused and still unstable. now the Drs believe that it wasn't a stroke, but his kidneysaare poisoning him. He had another spell thuis morning where he went unresponsive, Now he is awake, but still unaware of his surroundsings, confused and has no memory. He still hasn't eaten, but they Drs say if he can make it out phisically he might be okay.


i wish i could be there, wishi could halp. i'm so scared. My parents don't know, but i didn't sleep last night. I try to be strong, but idk why but i can't. I dont' want to talk to them because i'm afraid they'll say i'm being silly, or stop telling me whats happening so i don't worry. I cry when no one's looking and i just wish there was someone i could tak to about it, someone thats going to tell me he's goingto make it, not that their sorry. someone to give me a big hug, and tall me no matter what happens its for the best. someone to distract me, and keep me positive...... i need someone.......i need God.





Richard Lindsay
Monday the 17th will be His 81st birthday.