Sp many of you know about my recent dreams, but you haven't heard the most recents ones. I'm kinda scared, because whati've been dreaming could happen so easily, and i think thats what's so scary. I also think that its a lil scary i've been dreaming about HIM so much, I hate him..... RIGHT?? so whyam i ahveing these dreams, nd why does every name i think of start with an A. He's the devils child, so am i subconsiously flling for the person i hate the most, am i unknowingly expirenceing feelings for satan?! God i hate being a tennaged girl sometimes.
I've been trying not to sleep. I 'm horrified at what my brain will come up with to toture me with next. I wake in cold sweat every night, i sleep all night long but wake up feeling eghausted. I wake up at 11:00 or 1 am everynight, my knuckles and hands throbbing from grabbing my pillow so tight. I even fear going to school sometimes, wordering if maybe, just maybe, what idream will happen. I know it seems dumb, just a stupid dream. But the reality of those dreams is so intense, sometimes i think they really are happening, and that it not a dream.
I wish i had someone to help me, i can't talk to my mom, she'd wither freak out, or tell me they're just dreams. Iw ant to tell my friends, but, i can't. That maternal instinct in me doesn't want them to have to share my grief, and anger, and fear, and pain.
Just like i want to tell them my secrete, but i can't.
I wish, i had more nights where i could just be carefreee, and crawl into bed dreaming of shugar plums, and faries, but i cna't.
I put off going to sleep by reding, and stay awake only until i'm forced to shut my eyes, i even sleep with a light on sometimes, so when i wake up, drenched in sweat, and thrashing, i'm not alone in the dark.
Evne my dog knows whats going on, and will often times abandon my bed at night, only to come over and attempt to comfort me when i wake up crying.
Why is this happening?
An i over worked..... stressed?...... tired?..... hungary?...... afraid?..... guilty?..... what!!!
God, i know i'm not a very firm believer of you, but please, take these retched dreams away!!!!
i don't understand.
are the a warning, of what could happen? or a stup[id joke played on me to test something stupid like my endurence, or tolerence!!!
all i need are answers, why do these haunt my dreams, why am i so concerned about everyone, y don't i know one of my best friends any more, why do i feel usless this christmas, y is something i used to love, bringing so much anger, frustration, and pain, and why oh why, do i no longer want to speak my mind like have so many times before?
if you have any answers, please ...... help me escape this torture callled night time, called sleep.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Sleepless nights, and horrors
Posted by Lizz L Lindsay at 5:49 PM
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OK, i can't help but help you here.
ask yourself these questions:
are you taking any recent medications? not just things like sleeping meds, but anything fairly new?
secondly, how would you describe your bad dreams to be? like, are they where you can't move in your dream, or are you being chased, etc.
and, anything unusual at all that if the circumstances of the nightmares would occur in real life, would be different in your nighmare? (things that only would happen in your bad dream).
also consider this: Our subconscious mind is trying to aware us of the fact that we have a problem that needs to be resolved in our everyday lives. Or, that the steps we are taking to try and end the problem aren't working. Therefore, we need to rethink the problem and come up with a new way to solve it. you mentioned that you have been keeping things bottled up, or held inside. your brain has probably put those thoughts on the back burner to save you from possibly more pain and dilemma to where your subconcious has to take over in the form of your dreams.
idk if you want to get anything out of this, but i don't like to hear you be this agonized over something that is supposed to pleasantly bring us out of our every day life. hang in there.
that's very considerate.
but are you considering whats best for you?
the fact that you need to figure out your dream is apparent.
so, are you having lucid dreams, meaning dreams that you know are dreams? i think you mentioned that you don't know you are dreaming when your nighmares occur.
so, it is fully your subconcious mind.
any amount of stress can trigger dreams. try to listen to some calming music, without words. try some relaxation tricks immediately before you fall asleep. drink some cold water, and don't eat at least a half hour before you doze off. these help me all the time, as well as more serious nightmare cases,..like you.
but, it's great that you are not ignoring the dreams, because obviously they are trying to aware you of something - you are going to have to find that out.
and another thing, when your nightmares occur, are you in a deep sleep? or do they happen as soon as you fall asleep? is there a space between the time you fall asleep and when the dreams occur?
have a great snow day! try.
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